Rollin on the river

When I was going to college, I would take the bus back and forth for a weekend or holiday.  I met one of those "most unforgettable characters" on one such bus trip.  He told me life was like a river.  When you start out, you are in a small stream.  You can maneuver and change course at will.  Then the stream becomes wider and stronger.   You can still maneuver, but not as much.  Finally you are moving along rapidly in a full river and can't change course.  You are just carried along.

I'll have another scan in the fall, but haven't had any issues with recurrence.  My main struggle is dealing with the synthroid ...and getting old.   I have had a few issues, but mostly just from getting old.  No I'm not terribly old, but I've had a few bumps along the way.

The issue with living on synthroid for me is intolerance to heat.  Unless it's 70 or under, I'm sweating if I'm doing anything.  Plus the random heart palpitations. Not too bad...but not pleasant either. 

So we are now getting to the time of year that's more pleasant for me, and I look forward to it.

I pray for you all ..and for friends of mine who have cancer.   Makes what I deal with seem like nothing.

God bless all.

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Hi Sterling. Great post. The thyroid, and I know I don't have to tell you this, is one of those body parts that seems to control everything. So when it's "off", your entire universe is off. So, given that and the fact that you have a wife and family to care for and worry about, you deal with a LOT my friend. I'm also happy once I flip that calendar over to September. God bless. And it's funny how you never forgot that man on the bus! I've a couple of those crawling around my mind for years now!
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I believe that is something that can't be stated too strongly or too often: The thyroid controls everything. Your whole metabolism: Temperature regulation, heart rate, bowel movements ... and thus mood and mental functioning. My first realization was when they removed the second half of my thyroid and I went hypo prior to radioactive iodine... that's when you learn these facts.
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I love these narratives about "the right words at the right time." For whatever reason, you needed to hear what this stranger had to say - and found it so memorable that you're sharing it here so many years later. I had a high school friend who smoked, and continued to do so well into her 50s. She tried desperately to stop - and nothing worked: hypnosis, nicotine patch, health scares, etc. The last time I saw her she was smoke free, and I asked how she finally managed, after all these years, to quit. She said she was standing around Rockefeller Center when a tour bus with children pulled up. The children were disembarking; their harried teachers keeping track of little heads, and one young child looked at her and asked "Why do you smoke?". The simplest question - to which my friend was unable to provide even the most rudimentary beginning of a response. And that was her last cigarette.
Thanks for sharing, Sterling. 💪🏽
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Great big lump in throat. Thank you, Sterling.
Hi Sterling
There is a reason and a season for everything. You know I wonder do we fight getting old or do we accept our place in time... Do we regret the past or rejoice in the present? We always have a choice on how we want to perceive even the worst of circumstances.. I know when I stay close to God, I know I am exactly where I am suppose to be and I know what to do.. and that is stay close to him and he will lead the way and always carry me till the day I die.
I believe I will be with him in the end so I am living in today and staying close and loving the thought of one day being totally without pain or any evil goings on, and having a new body and everlasting happy life.
Keep the faith my friend. It gets hard with all these changes we have to deal with physically and mentally.
Just remember if the current on that river gets to be to much God will throw you a life raft or carry you home... It's all good.. I am going to say a prayer for you right now.. hugs and love and always prayers Sabina
You're amazing Sabina. Your faith inspires me. I wasn't really complaining as much as saying I'm just getting older and many things are changing...but it is natural.

God is my rock. My cancer was a scary, but relatively minor event in the whole of my life. His hand is on my shoulder always.

I'm not a cultured person...but here's something often quoted from William Wordsworth's "Intimations of Immortality from Recollections of Early Childhood"

Then sing, ye birds, sing, sing a joyous song!
And let the young lambs bound
As to the tabor's sound!
We in thought will join your throng,
Ye that pipe and ye that play,
Ye that through your hearts to-day
Feel the gladness of the May!
What though the radiance which was once so bright
Be now for ever taken from my sight,
Though nothing can bring back the hour
Of splendour in the grass, of glory in the flower;
We will grieve not, rather find
Strength in what remains behind;
In the primal sympathy
Which having been must ever be;
In the soothing thoughts that spring
Out of human suffering;
In the faith that looks through death,
In years that bring the philosophic mind.

Here you have many burdens to deal with and you are going around encouraging others. We've spoken about the bible verse that comes to mind when I think of you.
"Daughter, be of good cheer, your faith has made you well. Go in peace."

Did you ever think how you are a son of God. He actually made you first and made you in his likeness. And also, so that we could understand him as God, became a man. the son of God.. so that we would never be cut off from him.. and took every sin that ever was and paid it in full, with his suffering and dying on the cross, so we would be able to love and be with him forever. We will not die for our sins if we repent them.. the only way to die is not to believe. I feel so blessed that I get it.. it's such a comfort to me. And knowing others, like you, that love God and being able to share comforts me.. and I hope for the ones that don't know might be moved to know God. Our friend, Danean is going through a very hard time right now, with health problems and her mother is also very sick. Please keep them in your prayers.. hugs and love and always prayers Sabina
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November 12, 2012


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Thyroid Cancer

October 31, 2012

Stage 1



No energy.

Learning to be patient.

Mostly hypothyroid type symptoms.


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